Love

All these years now.. constantly keeping my feelings buried.

Yet today, with nothing more than a little push from you, it burst forth.

Never did I think I would remain so devoted..
Never did I think after so many attempts to match you with my brothers..

.. did I once think that I am in love with you.

Rare are the times do I wish I can turn it back and redo my choices. I would make you mine and keep you close, unharmed and happy forever.

I doubt you'll ever make an effort to know the real me, as much as I pray and wish that you would. But that's ok, because I know:

I love you. A love that will never be requited.

Losing Heart

April 11, 2014.

The deadline to make a decision.
A decision I once thought easy.
A decision made before.

Goddamnit. Why do I have to go through this again?

Received a magazine from my uni.
Of all the things that caught my eye, an advertisment on skincare products did.
Of all the things that I was reading, a name got stuck in my head.

D-e-n-i-s-e-S-o-o-n-g.

She's a complete stranger, but something about her, something about her eyes made an impact on me. I tracked her via FB, and presto, got a direct hit.

A quick look through her public photos enthralled me. How could anyone appear so flawless?
And a quick run through of the events of the past 3 weeks came and went.

I am not prepared.
I am losing heart.




... Help me.