Negative

See. This just proves my point.

You see nothing but the negative in everything I do. The only words you see and hear, the only thoughts you carry, are negative in nature.

No matter what I've said before, it seems like you cannot see or hear the good in them.

You only absorb the negative.

What am I supposed to do?

Enemy

I am not your enemy, neither do you view me as such.

Never was, never will.

Yet I feel nothing but hatred for you.

Because you destroyed what could have been.

It was perfect, flawless so.

But your mistrust and disbelief led to what it is now.

And therefore I hate you.

I want nothing more than what we had.

Simple, fulfilling, joyous.

But alas, you decided not to take the leap of faith with me.

And hence in pieces we end.

How are you

For a first time.. a song that actually transform my words into reality.

Coughing

Coughing up blood in the mornings isn't a pleasant feeling.

Fever

39.2

It's been a long time since I last saw this temperature. Been like this for the past three days. Apparently The Bugs just want me to burn money which I already don't have.

It's a shame when one has to borrow money from his mom just to see a doctor.

Fuck this country.