Soul

What is the value and worth of your soul?

What would you trade it for?

What would make you give it up for?

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Time flies. Before I knew it, it's October. And my last update was late August, about a month and more.

I didn't even think about my blog anymore. Hence the reason for not updating it until now. Perhaps I've been too busy to think about blogging; perhaps I've had outlets for me to vent, or am just simply too tired to remember to blog.

Certainly, the month of August/September was rather tiring. I was assigned to shift-rotation for that period of time, and had to work 12 hours a day. Including the time spent on travelling, I spent easily 15 hours outside the house, and thus whatever little time I had left, was redundant (eating, sleeping, you know, human needs).

The off days that I got in exchange was spent doing things for others/myself, and the first day of every off period was half-spent on sleeping; there was never enough sleep to get around on those days that required me to go to work. I simply cannot get enough sleep during my workdays as I'm not someone who can go to work, go home and sleep, and wait for off-days to have some "me" time.

Therefore, the only alternative was to cut out time wherever I could, and that meant sleep deprivation.

The months took its toll on my body; I knew I had to cut out my habit and get in more sleep-time, else I would start to breakdown literally, and get sick. Thankfully, my shift-rotation days are over, and today marked the first day I officially stayed back at the office for OT without pay.

Thankless job.

Somethings to be happy about: Mists of Pandaria has been released, and it certainly is one hell of an expansion. The developers really put in their hearts and soul into it. It's beautiful in every way possible: your eyes and ears are overwhelmed by the asian-theme artwork and the re-mix of the orchestra, rock and chinese style music is simply awesome.

Words cannot describe it. One must experience it to understand it.

Other thankful stuff: I've finally gotten my life into some form of routine and schedule, and hence can better plan for my life. The important friends whom I've always wanted to get back into contact with has been done, and now I can be selective on what I wanna do.

Even more so, I'm now financially-free to do whatever I want. Although that term isn't used correctly, at least I get to spend MY money however I want and whenever I want without having to worry about where my next meal is coming from. The added bonus of being able to satisfy my WANTS for once is just icing on the cake.

I finally bought my own piece of Razer hardware for myself. A Naga Hex. Certainly, I'm not a Razer fan, but getting a really good mouse has been something I've always looked forward to.

Simple things in life. =)

I'm greedy, no doubt, just like everyone else. I've got my wish list too!

I want a new laptop, new watches, new clothes, new shoes (I FINALLY threw away 2 pairs of 6-year old shoes.. HAHA! Who wears shoes for 6 years? =X).

I want new gadgets, new phone, new earpieces, a place of my own, my car, or a bike.

I want to be able to get my own kitchen, to cook on my own, to have my own storage, to have a place where I am King.

I want my own room where I can FINALLY fulfill my wish of creating a bookshelf and stocking it with my favorite collection of novels and manga.

I want to create a play-room where its full of nothing but games of all sorts, board games, card games, computer games, console games, you name it.

I wanna go overseas with my friends to see the world, or lacking that, to enjoy the sights, smells, and sounds of beach-side resorts, basking in the sun, cooling waters and hot babes in bikinis all around.

I wanna have my turn at being the alpha male. Enough with loyalty. It is worth NOTHING. My faith died along with my heart and soul after all these years of betrayal and being taken granted for.

I have so many wants. And this is just my first step to getting it done.

My soul has been torn, tattered, and crushed into pieces. If this is the way life wants me to be, why should I be otherwise? Sincerity, passion and love has done nothing for me.

As it wishes to be, so it shall be.

I will have what I want. And nothing shall stop me.